THINKING INSIDE THE BOX

       What's the point to have a little try to make people think a little "outside the box"?

For example, while sharing some pseudo-open-minded quotes on my Facebook wall?

        Almost none of my friends there, which aren't my friends at all for most of them , will even get it nor have any interest in it! 

        And that's the thing; Among these over 1000 people that I added on Facebook this last 5 years how many of them would I crave to be meeting if I had just heard of them and their (lack of) magic on the internet and had a chance to meet them in the real life? Very very very few… 

        And same thing for them really…

       To be honest, I'm not a very likeable person for most people that meet me for the first (and often last) time and I definitely admit that.

        Some much more likeable folks have dozens of comments on their walls and people that really care about them, also because they tend to do the same too. They care and are cared for.

        I'm not part of them. I can only care about very special people and most aren't, at least not according to my standards (that I don't even comply to myself). 

       Basically if I met myself without knowing me I would need some extra time and conversations to get to like me as the first words I usually manage to start with are far to be the best of me.

       I'm one of those that you have to know better in order to discover how fascinating but still weird they actually are. 

  

     I'm a puzzle to decipher and most people are too dumb to play games with something which actually isn't.

       They'd rather make their little social show which is often everything but not them.   

I've also gone through that as a common practise too just to be able to blend, and get girls to like me; that's the other thing.

       But now I can't put on this facade anymore. I can't talk about boring shit.  I hate small talks, they make me sick in my stomach.

       I also feel uncomfortable  introducing myself for the first time as you can't define a person by a name, a job (that I don't have) and the place where they are from. 

      A really intriguing personality is often much richer,  although looking poorer to the blind's eyes,  than a name/job status. 

  

                    

       I've been a loner all my life and this has as much chances to change than not to change...

just dependance how much i want to work on it, on my facade job...

      Sure,  I also had my times of partial popularity when being a good actor especially among the couchsurfing community years ago which isn't too difficult because people already go there with an open mind an they crave to "be your buddy". I met some really great people on CS and a bunch of very uninteresting one, most of them actually... 

  

      Anyway, I'm the one that has to "think inside the box" sometimes and stop by to see how reality is doing or I will get lost forever and die alone (if dying is in the picture, hopefully not).

      Or I can stick with people that share my interest about Science and the future but for the later, apart from Ray kurzweil and a couple more I'm not gonna have many friends to hang out with and that's sort of the problem….     

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MY TOP 10 PEOPLE LIST; WHAT'S YOURS?

This is are the people that I most admire and/or that are examples of achievement for me.  This list is about people very much ALIVE. 

       I will later make a different list also including the great personalities that have shaped the world and which are now diseased.

       Please feel free to come up with YOUR OWN list and to put it in the comment section bellow!!!
And thanks for your comments in any case...   

                                      

                                                                    NUMBER I

                         JACQUE FRESCO (97 years old) FOUNDER of the VENUS PROJECT 

                                            

                                                                   NUMBER II 

                                                  RAY KURZWEIL (65) FUTURIST

                                           

                                 

                                                                   NUMBER III

                                                 MAX (43) FUN RADIO HOST (France)

                                                                  NUMBER IV
                                                 MICHIO KAKU (66) PHYSICIST

                                                                    NUMBER V    
                                             PETER JOSEPH (35)  SOCIAL ACTIVIST

          

                                                                   NUMBER VI
                                     NEIL DEGRASSE TYSON (54) ASTROPHYSICIST

                                                                      NUMBER VII
                                         SAHIL LAVINGIA (21) APP ENTREPRENEUR 

                                                                  NUMBER VIII
                                           CHRISTOPHER NOLAN (42) FILMMAKER

                                                                    NUMBER IX
                                                  LAURA DEMING (20) BIOLOGIST

                                                                   NUMBER X
                                                 ROBERT DONEY JR (48) ACTOR

                                                               

I just realised I forgot STEPHEN HAWKING.   I'll include him in the next one...

I WISH I WERE GAY

That's a long one but you gonna love it (or hate it)

BTW:

-if we know each other in real life or will

-if you happen to be a girl

-if we like each other or once did

DON'T READ THIS!!  But I know you will, so just a warning here before you go through that and make the irreparable mistake to delete me from your facebook and hate me forever after:
  PEOPLE CHANGE AND I'M A NEW MAN (that's all i could come up with, sorry...)  

     

So now that everyone is warned let's get started with the good stuff (I mean, bad stuff): 

     

     Well, I don't really mean that I wish I were gay but what I know is that these last years every time I got frustrated for lack of sexual activity or for messing it up with a girl and blow my chances I often thought: 

       I wish I were gay, because it's easier to find a guy than a girl! And because I would love to piss off homophobes, no that's not really true, but sure, why not...

        I can definitely get that many gays would disagree with me even though, on the other hand, they have mostly no ideas how hard it is for a guy to be with a girl?!

         I guess that if you are gay but very choosy or even worse,  if you like to challenge yourself by playing ball in the straight field, you might get into even more trouble, frustration and rejections than the average straight dude...

         But think about it: if what you are mainly looking for is a quick  game then there's nothing better than playing for the other team as there have plenty of special game centres for that

         And seriously,  if I had remained a virgin and hadn't wasted my time sleeping around with girls I might just have been 27 now and not 32... (silly I know)

         because the thing which is the most time consuming with girls in not doing it, unless you can hold on for days, but it's the "seduction" process 

         And once, and I will repeat myself, I'm really sorry if any of my ex-lovers, or future-lovers for that matter, inopportunely read that so for the record: 

                  

                       "It really was awesome being with you, or it will be"!

                                                             Cheesy, I know

           No, seriously, thanks god (or the big guy that programmed us up there with his big computer), as soon as I overcame the psychological barrier of the  200  a couple of months ago I thought:

         -Ok dude, you've been a real dick, player, whatever, and had sex with 10 times more chicks than the average French guy does in a life time so now it is time to grow up and think about  "serious stuff"!! 

             I'm not only a dick but an arrogant one you might think and you are just jealous but it's OK,        I understand. I'd think the same way if i were you... 

            And if you are not surprised and just fine with me spitting out the numbers then you are the one that understand and it's even better even if my advice is, don't go there and if you are already way passed it just take a break before it's still time!

      

            I'm not saying that because I think there is anything wrong with having multiple experiences and partners but because even though I've always known it, now i'm forced to observe that it's a real  "waste of time, energy and neurones". 

            Because the time and energy you waste trying to convince a girl, unless you know every rules from the book and are an instant-lady-killer,  to practise and share with you the most natural thing in the            world (since most of the time she doesn't seem to know it is the most natural thing in the world) it is time that you could have spent to learn a new skill or help "starving kids" in Africa or simply save money to travel the whole planet or even better, save the world, the galaxy and the lost Aliens out there! 

                                       

Of course since the average single  citizen dude already does what I do right now and from now: 

       "Not" striking a conversation with every pretty or interesting girl he encounters; it is easy for him to keep doing it and not doing it is a huge time saver so man, you're a champ! 

        Bang! It took me over 12 years to get revenge for my unsuccessful  teenage years as a virgin and I really hope that I'm finally over with it!  

        Sex activities with a new friend isn't a big deal and is perfectly natural and a nice thing to do when you have time to kill just as playing beach-volley, swimming, watching TV or reading a novel!

        But here we are, if you are on  a tight schedule and have to commit yourself into a bunch of fascinating stuff then you're not even going to prioritise sex at all and you'll just put on the bottom of your list. (unless it's more than just about sex, of course...)

        It took me a while to figure it out. I know it's fucking obvious but I'm a slow learner, remember?         

 Writing this here already shows how much i don't care letting people know about it even though most homo-sapiens would never do that since they value their privacy to suuuch an extent!

      Anyway,  as I got nothing much to hide I might be, and for the third time,  "involuntary" discrediting myself to any cool girl I know (or will know) reading this pile of shit but she also will understand that the past it the past and that I'm all for "being more serious now" if I ever think about wasting my time again with anybody on the longer run sometimes in the close future...

      And if she doesn't understand then probably we were not meant for each other. 

But the absolute truth is that women like bad boys and I dare any girl to tell she doesn't!     

So, to wrap it up,  Fundamental Christians think that homosexuality is a sickness that should be cured.  

           Does any other sick cult or organisation think about the same thing the other way around? 

     That heterosexuality is an illness; and turn me happily ever after into a "proud to be gay man" released from the appeal of all the beautiful walking mermaids out there?      Just let me know…   

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BETTER LEARN SOMETHING THAN NOTHING

     So, even if the crazy idea of learning my whole Korean language book by heart more than crossed my mind I have to be realistic and giving up on this idea will enable me to keep learning and will save my time and brain for more important matters than rote (not really actually) memorisation. 

      Anyway, since learning programming and some science is much more useful and even interesting than learning a language I'm starting to think about "giving up on Korean" buuuut I don't want that to happen!!!

                                     This isn't from my book but it's funny as hell though      

      Thus, that's just not gonna happen and I'm gonna make it or I know I will regret it some days! 

I'm a language lover, korean is a beautiful and fascinating one and I might spend simply a few more months but maybe several years of my life here while coming back, who knows, so i don't want to mess this up as I did with chinese 5 years ago while living in Beijing and not learning it anymore... 

korean, hold on, I'm coming for you!        


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BUILT ARGUMENTATION

Since I'm as good of a thinker as I am a slow one (meaning very very slow, and I know, I'm so damn arrogant!) obviously I should do what many politicians and public figures do:

       

         Listen/read/think… about most of the arguments that people could come up with about my favourite topics and what I wanna defend (Artificial Intelligence, biological Immortality, agnosticism, freedom of mostly everything…) and listen/read/think... thus "find" counter-arguments to break their (pretty often) backward thinking down and keep them speechless or at least thoughtful (in order to help them, of course...) instead of being constantly the one shut down and kept speechless for slow RAM processing. 

       Yeah, undoubtedly frustrating for many geeks out there also in my situation. Hard to know that you know better but just can't find the words to make it know.    

       I've learned that haven't the quickest response isn't always a sign of intelligence but definitely a sign of verbal superiority and since fools of all kind are often the most confident and outspoken of all people as they have so little to think and worry about it's paradoxically quite of a challenge. 

       It's easier to convert someone to an obscure cult than to prove them wrong! 

Anyway, this is something I will have to do in the future if I want people to get my point, at some extent, without bashing my ideas the whole time without even thinking of giving them any credit whatsoever at any point of the conversation...      

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ASSIMILATION BY HEART?

 Since I was 21 I've tried to learn a dozen of language with the Assimil method, http://en.assimil.com/.

         I've studied Romanian, German, Italian, Russian, Hungarian, Bulgarian, Spanish, Portuguese, Catalan, Chinese, Vietnamese…

I actually totally forgot Hungarian and already mostly Vietnamese or even pretty much some other languages.

    

Which one are you? 

(and no, i don't get paid for this, but maybe I should) 

     But even more problematically I have the feeling that my memory abilities have gone from about 100% when I was a kid to about 30% now, no kidding!  

        To be absolutely honest I even actually feel that I'm at least 3 times more forgetful than, not even 20 years ago but as late as 10 years ago!

      

       Maybe it's just an impression but as far as I'm concerned (and I'm very concerned) it probably isn't! But still, using the right memory tricks can have a huge impact on your learning abilities and that's why I started yesterday to try memorising the 6 first lessons of my Korean Assimil PDF that I downloaded online. 

       I thought I was doing pretty good but this morning I feel like a zombie and have a pretty hard time remembering the lessons I was supposed to know already. 

       I then thought about giving up on it since learning 70 short stories by heart in Korean would not even help much to speak it but now I'm still thinking that such an experiment would be interesting to conduct so I leave me another day or two to try it out and see how it goes. I might not be able to learn much today though but I'll do my best...      

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SLEEPING CYCLE

This is gonna be pretty boring for anyone that "sleeps like a log" so skip it if you do...

        Over a month when I first moved to Seoul and was living in a Goshiwon (small studying room) in the center I was running on a 5 hours sleeping time. 

       I thought I was tired but I couldn't sleep longer anyway as I never really went to bed before 2 or 3am and the semi-daylight was waking me up. 

        Now I'm trying a 11pm to 5pm cycle as these hours are supposedly worth a lot more resting time . 

Last night I thought I was going to be exhausted and sleep early but I kept on studying a little more about HTML and even korean to help me feel tired in order to fall asleep but every time, as soon as I stood up I felt energised again. 

                                                 click to enlarge (just so you know) 

       I put my alarm to buzz 6 Hours later, what I normally sleep since "more" doesn't make a difference anyway but once again I had to go back on reading/studying and after another half an hour I was finally falling asleep once again. It's not easy to go to bed at 10.30pm/11pm when you have spent over a decade almost never ever sleeping before midnight at the very list. 

       Then I was too lazy to change my alarm clock again or maybe it was just that I didn't want to stand up again to reach my phone, feel energised and start this annoying cycle again… 

     But later waking up at 4.20am was quite of a shock and even if I felt like I pretty much went through the 5 1/2 hours of night time asleep most of the time, I think it's good to wake up early but obviously not too early, when it is still dark outside.

       Our biological clock works better by following the earth cycle. Fortunately the sun rises at 5am here since after all we're not far from the country of the rising sun. 

         So maybe Either sleeping at least 6 hours if one wants to wake up when it's still dark or waking up when the sun is already rising is a must in order not to be a mess in the morning and for the whole day i can pretty much already assume… 

         And doing both would be even better for sure. I was thinking to try a 10pm-4pm cycle as it seems to be the best butttt, unless it become a 7 hours sleep 10pm-5am, it might not be so good as "night wake up" might not be the best therapy. 

        Unfortunately most people have to cope with it almost every morning of the week (apart around here and where the sun rises early).

         And others never go out of bed at descent hours (as I did for years) spending half of their life in an horizontal position. I never went as far as that though and don't want to go back there, before the matrix. takes place   

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